This is a story about sleep deprivation, daily expectations; essentially life taking its toll on YOU.
One day in the Cayman Islands, I met a couple, & their big greyhound dog, along the beachside. They began chatting away about life on the brilliant blue!
He was from Canada & she was from tough Detroit. After he moved down to the islands, he asked her to come too. She debated. She stayed to see her adult children. She was locked into a job she could retire from but couldn’t seem to extract herself from.
Finally, after a year of him asking her to come away to his beachfront abode, she accepted.
She recounted to me that for 6 solid months, she slept in, drank coffee in her pajamas, & ultimately had ZERO drive to do anything. She would turn on the Detroit news/weather/traffic so she could connect with what had been a part of her life, always. But in time, that lost its novelty. She began to venture out to the water, slowly.
And after 6 months of no desire to do ANYTHING, she perked up & wanted to paint. She wanted to sew. She wanted to dance. Suddenly, the ocean looked vividly blue & the sugar sand so white!
She was happy & integrated when I met her. And it took 6 WHOLE MONTHS.
My point is, by the time you get a day off, all you want to do is rest & recover. Sure, you’d love to travel, run, play with your grandkids, organize that dang ol’ closet.. you know the one I’m talkin’ about! But sleep may be the only thing on your mind.
So I’m giving you full permission.. to rest. Go easy on yourself. Don’t push so hard, the world already does that to you.
Sleeping in one day isn’t going to repair your sleep deprivation but it won’t stop the world from turning, either.
Be kind to you. Listen to what you want most. You are precious & what you do with your time creates a life.. your life.
Enjoy. ANd if it take months or years for you to get your spark back, so be it. It’;s not a competition. Everyone is different, so you must listen to your own internal guidance. And breathe easy.. as long as it takes.